Man i feel so old! Zoe... my bosses daughter... like my little sister is growing up so fast! I can't believe it! She's already 5 years old and she's getting so tall she comes up to my arm pit when she stands beside me. Today she sat with me while i ate lunch and finished colmer's stupid biotech assignment! She asks so many questions! She was asking me about what i want to be "when i grow up" and then she asked me a lot about when she was a baby. She asked me all sorts of questins like how big she was and if i remember when she was born. I was very honest i told her that i was there every step of the way that i was with her before even her aunts and uncles were. She asked if she was cute... i told her she was more than just cute... she was absolutely beautiful. Then she asked about if i held her all the time. This was when it kind of hit me... I'm afraid of babies!!! seriously laugh if you want but i can't touch them, i especially can't hold them! i don't know what it is i just get teriffied! so i told her that i didn't hold her but i was with her all the time. she was kind of upset... she was like well why? why didn't you hold me? Didn't you like me? MY HEART BROKE!!! i love her more than anything in lthe world! i spend all my spare time with her! I go to take her out on my lunches from school. I feel like a big giant piece of crap! i don't want to miss out on any other part of her life! i need to spend more time with her with more memories because time's flying and life is short and soon enough she's going to be all grown up and she's not going to be my baby girl any more!

I can't wait for christmas! She's getting a brand new dirtbike! It's a 50cc racing stock KTM and it's set up for her weight and height exactly! i bought her new gear! Pink FOX jersey and gloves! i can't wait till christmas comes soi i can throw her bike in the back of the truck and take her out to the farm to tear around with me! She really is like her big sister... everyone says that! She's following in my footsteps pretty solidly right now i just hope now she can do better on the circuit than me this year and bring home some serious hardware.... maybe pick up some sweet sponsors! YAY!!!!